Saturday, May 13, 2006

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hey dear!
why you never see your mistress?
whose she whose she?
geeeee...
:/

anw,
im still really drawn to you sleeping la!
you look so really adrorable!
its like even though we didnt do much today other than watching shows at home together,
but it felt as though to me that everything felt great.
just with you sleeping soundly like a baby on my lap,
under the little blanket,
holding my little finger.
this feeling was really sweet and its been quite some time when we can sit around and do lil things.
since i always have so many meetings and paijus are tightening remaining times up.

sometimes i really ponder if all tht im having now is all i should deserve,
tht if i should give up some things.
cos at times i feel really stressed up and cant cope.
but as you know im always tht stubborn.
i'll hold on to everything all at one go no matter how things are,
and end up nothings done well in the end.
and for all i know,
ive neglected you and i really feel bad about it.
if for anth tht could make you feel better or happier,
you can just tell me?
i feel selfish to hold you up and yet not being able to be there for you like how all couples do.
as much as i really wanna spend all my time with you.
but yet i cant.
and its hurting..
i know.
sigh.
):

im really hoping that upcoming activities can hurry end.
so maybe things wont get so bad?
afterall there's so much more i dun wanna lose,
the big part of me which is youu.
time is really being a big problem here.
hmmmmm...

for the study sessions,
how about sundays and mondays before my meeting?
i need alot of catch up with my work too since tests are coming.
not forgetting our jogging!
whenever i end early,
those days tht's not yours or our paiju days,
i'll ring you down and we go run okay!
think other than losing weight,
it can be a great stress relief too.
to put all the effort of stress and run it all out.
cool!
(:


mmm..
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`missing youu at 11:28 PM.