Sunday, August 27, 2006
hey dear!
im here to blog after many days of not here.
pretty bored after coming back home to do research for poly forum.
gee..
anw dear,
i think ive plenty of things in my head now..
and its been all in my head thinking and processing since the afternoon when you said you've things that you xiang bu tong?
and i went to process what we've said last night..
hmmm..
but they're just all my opinions?
you dun have to agree with me..
i just think that..
we've drifted?
and recently during your performance period you're...
very emotional.. uhh.. maybe not.. let's say.. thinky?
i dunno..
cos i feel that..
you seem to have alot of things running through in your mind..
and there are things that you are unhappy about..
but when i ask you, you said you've forgotten about it or maybe a very short lined answer?
that keeps me wondering what happened to you?
maybe ive not much stand to tell you this cos afterall when i myself have anything,
i wont tell you straight too..
so i guess i jus have to live with it,
live with the way when we cant get anything out of each other, things we wanna know,
we simply have to just forget it and not try anymore?
cos.. pushing an answer out is really..
not easy?
and...
it doesnt feel good?
i dunno.
-shrugs-
and also..
i feel too that somehow..
something somewhere's changed?
i dunno..
patience.. expressions.. reactions.....
they are somehow..
bu yi yang le..
i dunno..
just this very weird feeling..
mmmm..
and i guess after talking to you last night,
i kind of know why there's times i tell you sometimes i get the insecure feeling already?
jiu shi zhi dao its your character,
if you have any feelings with your ex,
you can go back to them?
i think..
so nan mian ou er hui qu xiang na wan yi wo men chao jia le zen me ban..
then there will have this..
mei you bao zhang feeling i guess.
as much as this is not your fault at all cos the character is in you and it makes you special your way,
but somehow just cant help slide in to think lor.
mmmm..
tht's why.
but anw your performance is over at last!
maybe things will get better or feel better when we have more time for each other?
i dunno..
hope you'll have a full dinner dear!
and rest early when you get home!
replenish all the sleep you've lost yep?
congrats for the wonderful production dear!
have fun and enjoy! (:
i'll go do research already!
take care!
(:
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